So, I'm pretty sure I'll be getting a new job soon. I need one. Not that I don't love where I work now its just that I need money. Well more of it. I need more hours.

Matts my boyfriend now. We decided that if were gonna date exclusively then we should just be boyfriend and girlfriend. He's met my family. My dad, stepdad, mom, stepmom, sisters, brothers, even my grandmother. He came to dinner with us for my little sisters birthday. And he came over my dads house for Fathers Day. Its weird that Matt has a son. My boyfriend has a 2 year old son. That blows my mind. Im getting really excited because my parents are going on vacation for like 2+ plus weeks. I get to spend more time with Matt. His birthday is coming up. Im making him a romantic dinner. With candles and music and shit. Im excited.

My relationship with my dad hasn't gotten a lot better. We talk more now. Almost everyday. He told me if I ever needed anything to let him know. I miss him. Being with Matt has actually changed my outlook on life. I'm around my family more. I've changed a lot. In a good way. My mom is happy about that.

Wow. I totally forgot about my blogger....

I just found out the other day that my dads best friend has terminal cancer and he only has 6 months to live. I pretty much grew up with him. And I just can't believe that in 6 months hes going to die. I'm so scared for him. And I'm scared for my dad. He is the closest friend my dads got and now hes going to die. He was there when my sister got married. And I wanted him to be at my wedding. But thats not going to happen. He's like my second dad. He gave me advice and encouraged me to do anything. Im gonna miss that. And Im really gonna miss him.

So I've been kinda hooking up with my brother in laws brother. You got that? Lol. His name is Matt. We've had sex. Really good sex. And we both decided that were just fuck buddies. Cause neither one of us is looking for a relationship right now. Well last night, he told me he was falling for me. I'm not really sure what that means. I've never had anyone tell me they were falling for me. I mean I really like him. But I just got out of a relationship. And I don't want to be in another one right now. Atleast I told him straight up that I dont want a relationship. That makes me feel better. Im kinda enjoying the single life.

So yeah thats pretty much all thats goin on in my life right now. Kinda lame. But Im sure in about a week or two I'll have something more exciting to write about.

Ah shit. Too fucking early.

So I thought I'd give this whole blogspot thing a try. Whatever. Its 6:45 on a Saturday morning and I've been awake since 4:30. There's not a god damn thing on t.v.

So I'm going to West Virginia today. Just until tomorrow morning. Thank God. Its like a 4 hour drive or some shit like that. I'll probably bring my camera so I can take some pics and show Jasmine and Eric just how lame it is up there. So I have to see my dad. And talk to him. Which I haven't been. Cause he's an asshole. He doesn't support me in anything I do. Which pisses me off so fucking much. He's just pissed because I didn't graduate college. I'm finally deciding on what to do with my life and he totally just shit on me (that make sense? o well) . So yeah, I've been ignoring his phone calls. My sister says I should talk to him and tell him Im pissed at him. And my mom says hes an idot. I'll get over it and so will he. I really don't give a fuck.

I'm single now. Finally broke up with Jay. Yeah he was an asshole. Like everybody said. I think I stayed with him for so long mostly just because the dick was good. Really good. I told him about Jake. Eww, escuse me, saying his name just made me threw up a little. Yeah that whole Jake thing was a mistake. A big mistake. Glad I fucked Jay a couple times after me and jake stopped talking cause I needed to get him out of my head. Now I just think about having sex with Jay. No Jamie! Stop thinking about his dick. Thats what I keep telling myself. Its hard. But then I just think about all the asshole things he did and then I don't want it anymore. But whatever. Fuck him. I'm done talking about it.

So I had sex with my brother in laws brother. His name is Matt. The sex was really good. We had sex a couple of times. He's 28. And has a 2 year old son. I thought it would be wierd having sex with someone that much older then me but it really didn't feel wierd. He's cute. Were just gonna be friends who have sex. Im ok with that. I don't really want to be in a relationship right now. I mean now I can have sex with whomever I want. Fuck yeah!

Ok, I'm done writing for now. I gotta take a piss and start getting ready for my dreadful trip to West fucking Virginia. O yeah I gotta pack too. Shit.